Not much to report

Well...nothing new here! I guess I should be thankful for that. So far pregnancy has been uneventful. lol! Aside from going from full to STARVING at the drop of a hat and needing to pee every hour or two nothing else has really been happening. It's going to be pretty boring (I hope) until our ultrasound on the 9th. I can't wait to go back to the RE and get reassurance that everything is right on track. I'm so anxious to see the sac and make sure there is actually something in it! If we're lucky we might be able to detect a heartbeat but it will still be kind of early, so I'm not putting too much hope into that just yet. It will be a VERY welcome surprise if we do hear it!

This is going to sound nuts but I'm dying to start taking belly photos! There isn't anything to take a pic of yet. I'm just bloated, so I will hold off, but once we have our u/s and know that things are good to go, the belly shots will begin! Get excited! HAHA! :o)

Starting to sink in

Wow...it's still really hard to believe that we are really pregnant! It's starting to sink in, but since I don't look pregnant yet, and won't for a while, it's sometimes hard to really believe. Once we see our little bambino on the u/s screen I'm sure it will finally be REAL.

I really haven't had too many pregnancy symptoms yet. Not that I'm surprised really. Most people have no clue they're even pregnant yet at this stage. Today I'm technically 4 weeks and 5 days. It kind of freaks me out to say that because I know just how fragile this time is, but I'm trying VERY hard not to focus on what might happen and just enjoy the fact that after 16 long, painful, heartbreaking months we have finally achieved our goal! Such a great big huge thank you goes out to our doctor and his staff. Without them none of this would've been possible! I will be forever grateful to them for the help they gave us.

There are a few symptoms I have started to notice though. First and sorry for the TMI here...haha...I am peeing like a racehorse! I swear I have to go every hour or two all day long! Thankfully it's not that frequently at night, but I am getting up multiple times each night. For someone who never used to get up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom, this has been quite the adjustment! The second thing I've noticed is how hungry I am, and it will come out of nowhere. I will eat, be full, and an hour or two later my stomach feels like it is going to eat itself if I don't find food that very instant! It kind of makes me nervous about the amount of weight I'm going to put on if this keeps up! The last thing is I get super tired really easily. By the time I go to bed I barely get out a "goodnight" and a kiss to Matthew and I am totally zonked! I have a feeling I'm going to be spending lots of quality time with my couch this week when I go back to work.

Not much else to report :o) Unfortunately until the 9th you'll just get to read about new pg symptoms, and whatever random thoughts I'm having. Lol! I guess that's a good thing. I really don't want anything exciting to happen yet, because at this stage "excitement" usually isn't good.

Well, Spot and/or Dot...I can't wait to see you in a few weeks! Grow, grow, grow big and strong!

BFP!!!!!!!!!!

Oh so many answered prayers today! Thank you SO MUCH to everyone who has been praying for us. It means more than you can ever know! I can't even begin to explain how I'm feeling right now! I am still in shock that I'm actually PREGNANT! We have waited so long for this moment!

My coordinator called only about an hour after we left the doctor's office! I couldn't believe how fast we had the results! We ran a few errands after leaving the office, (I think Matthew was trying to keep me occupied...hehe) and we weren't even home yet when she called! Then came the most glorious news I've ever heard. "Your betas were positive!" How I managed to not cry I'll never know! I was on the verge that's for sure!

Oh this is definintely a Good Friday in so many ways! So many blessings to be thankful for! I can't wait for our little Christmas miracle!

Since I have waited 16 months to know what a positve pregnancy test looks llike, I couldn't resist peeing on a stick or two :o) This is the most beautiful picture!

One more day

Talk about the longest 2 days of my life! Yesterday I had my first beta. Unfortunately my RE's office doesn't give the results until after the 2nd beta. I understand the reasoning behind it, but it is definitely a slow, painful form of torture! Tomorrow morning I go in for the 2nd one, and hopefully by around noon I will have the results. I am experiencing every single emotion I think a person can. I guess the only good thing is I've only felt like this for one week instead of two like all my other 2ww's.

I'm incredibly relieved that Matthew has the day off tomorrow. I don't think I could handle getting the news alone, good or bad, but especially if it's bad. Thank goodness for no work. I can have my meltdown or fit of excitement at home instead of at work :o) Hopefully we will be celebrating and crying tears of joy!

Crazy is setting in...

Ok, so I was doing GREAT during this 2ww. It's been the best one I've ever had to endure, until yesterday. The longer I have to wait, and the closee I get to results day the crazier I'm becoming! I'm having a lot of "it didn't work" thoughts. I know, I know...positive thinking. I'm trying REALLY hard to combat the negative with two positive thoughts, but man is it getting hard!

Rationally I know that yes there is a 50% chance that it worked, but that also means there is a 50% chance that it didn't work. I've been back and forth between thinking we're soon going to be parents, and thinking that we will be back to square one. If it didn't work, we have 5 little tot-sicles to work with. They are already at the blastocyst stage, and frozen cycles have very good chances of succeeding.

My symptoms, or lack there-of are also not helping the crazy any. I really haven't felt much of anything. Realistically I shouldn't be yet. The hCG levels in my blood are not going to be that high yet, and until they are I won't be feeling any pregnancy symptoms. Any little twinges I do feel I'm positive are just a result of the progesterone I take every night. My head is spinning all day long, and it's getting quite exhausting...I never thought I'd say this, but I'm almost ready for my break to be nearing its end just so I can have my results. I'm ready to know one way or the other, just so we can move forward and start planning for the next steps...whatever they may be.

Spot and Dot, your mommy is hoping and praying everyday that you're still going strong! Sophie is doing her best to keep you nice and warm by lying across my belly every day :o)

One more week!

Ok...so I had a great post all done and ready to be uploaded, and I lost it. GRRR!!!! Anyway I'll do my best to recreate it.

One more week until the big Beta reveal! I find myself stuck in an internal battle between wanting it to be here soon and hoping the next week goes VERY slowly. See, next week is my spring break from school. Anyone who knows a teacher knows that spring break can't come soon enough and is always way too short. So there's my dilemma. My results won't come until next Friday. By then my week of freedom will be almost over, yet I'm anxious and excited to know the results. My first blood test will be on Wednesday, but they won't tell me positive or negative until after the 2nd test on Friday.

I really haven't stressed over this. For some reason this 2ww, which thankfully is not a full two weeks when doing IVF, has been the least stressful of any I've had, and there have been a lot! I don't know if I was so focused on warding off OHSS, or if it's because I have had such a great feeling about our chances, but I really haven't worried about the phone call that will come next Friday afternoon. Now I'm sure I'll be singing a different tune next Friday, but for now, I'm cool as a cucumber :o) Hopefully my lack of worry and nervousness is a great sign!

I found a really cool website that talks about the different stages of development post IVF procedures. Today is 5 days post 3 day transfer (5dp3dt in internet chatroom shorthand). I found a GREAT website that gives the details of each day's progress post transfer. According to the NYU Fertility Center Spot and Dot are now blastocysts, have hatched out of their shells, and are burrowing deeper into the uterine lining to fully implant! Let's hope that one or both of them are still going strong!

As always grow babies grow!!!!!!

We have Tot-sicles!

I heard from my coordinator a little while ago and I am really happy with our freezing report! She said we had 5 blastocysts frozen! I am so relieved! With 27 little embryos still growing the day we transferred I was really afraid we'd wind up with 15 or 20 frozen ones. Then comes the huge question, "What do we do with them?" There is a good possibility we'll have to answer that question if both of my little embabies stick this time, but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. It's a lot easier to make the decision with 5 as opposed to 15 or 20! We will be getting a letter in the mail from the embryologist with all the details about the frozen ones. I'm really anxious to hear the number of cells, grades, ratings, etc.

On a side note, I'm back to work today and whoa, am I tired! I knew I would be, but I am so ready for a nap it's crazy! Thankfully Wednesdays are my easy days. My class has several specials on Wednesdays so I can do quite a bit of sitting since they're not in the room all day long. Tomorrow and Friday though may be a different story. Thankfully my pain has pretty much disappeared. If I twist too hard or bend too quickly I'll get a twinge, but as for the constant soreness it's gone. YEA! I was beginning to think it would never go away. I guess the Gatorade (ick!) has helped! I'm still doing my best to choke it down, but I'm supplimenting with a lot of water. Water doesn't do as well at expelling the fluid, but it's better than nothing! What I wouldn't give to have a bathroom in my classroom! lol!

If all is going according to plan Spot and Dot are blastocysts now and working on hatching out of their shells so they can fully implant into my uterus. Let's hope they're doing their jobs!!!!! GROW GROW GROW!!!

Gatorade...oh how I loathe you!

Well...I guess the title of this post pretty much says it all. I have been drinking (guzzling) Gatorade since last Tuesday when Matthew and I went to the RE for our trigger shot instructions. Since I had an insane amount of follicles and eggs I am at a higher risk for developing OHSS (see definitions in the right hand column). Even though they empty the follicles during egg retrieval, the follicles refill with fluid. The fluid can then seep out into the abdomen causing lots of problems if not dealt with properly. So in order to try and prevent this problem I was told to drink Gatorade and lots of it. Gatorade helps rid the body of the fluid much better than water does apparently. So I started my Gatorade regimine last Tuesday. I was doing fine until today. Today every sip of it makes me want to hurl.

I've tried changing flavors which helped yesterday, but today it doesn't matter what flavor I'm drinking. I have to choke it down. I still have about a week to go before I'm out of the woods with OHSS, so I know I need to keep drinking it, and I'm doing my best, but man is it tough! I've been supplimenting with water today. Every sip of Gatorade is followed by several gulps of water. Anything to make it go down easier! I'm still using the bathroom very frequently which is a great sign, so I'm not overly concerned, but I do need to drink more Gatorade than I have so far today. One thing's for sure, I will NEVER be able to drink Gatorade again after this!

My precious little embabies (which my mother has lovingly named Spot and Dot hehe) PLEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEE stick so that your mommy didn't go through all of this for nothing!!!!!!!

Oh and I will apologize now...until the betas, my posts will probably be random and pretty dumb like this. There won't be much to report between now and then. :o)

Two Embies on Board! :o)

This morning was our embryo transfer! We got the phone call from our coordinator to come in for our ET. They actually had us come in 45 minutes earlier than our original appointment time. I was in the shower when the phone call came, so Matthew told me to hurry and then start guzzling my Gatorade. The worst part of the transfer is it has to be done with a full bladder.

So they take us back to the exam room and gave me a Valium to take to relax me a bit. Valium is quite an interesting med...lol more on that later. I was continuing to drink my Gatorade as we waited for everything to get started and Brian, one of the lab techs, comes in with the picture of our embryos. He told us that they were very good. They rated them a 95/100, they were a Grade 2, and had 8 cells. By day 3 7-8 cells is exactly what they want to see. There is some slight fragmentation with them, which is why they were grade 2 instead of 1, but that overall they were very good. I asked about the rest of our embies, and he said they're watching the rest of them for freezing on day 5 or 6. He said they're all still growing, but growing at different rates. Whatever ones are grades 1 or 2 blastocysts by Tuesday or Wednesday will be frozen for future use.

Not long later two of the nurses came in to check my bladder to make sure it was full enough, and they were also checking for any excess fluid build up in my abdomen. Since I had so many follicles and eggs my chances of developing OHSS is higher than most. There was still some fluid build up under my uterus and my follicles were still filled with fluid, so they wanted Dr. H to check before proceeding. He came in and did the ultrasound again, and said that although there was some fluid, he didn't think it was enough to cancel the transfer. With as many follicles as I had, he said he expected some fluid build up. They reminded me again to continue to drink my Gatorade, monitor urine output and temperature. Once he decided that it was ok to proceed with the transfer, out came the speculum (yippee!) the catheter went in, and the abdominal ultrasound was still pushing down on my stomach/bladder. Brian came back in with the embryos, and in they went! They showed us the little embies on the screen and printed out a few pictures for us. It's crazy to think that these are our babies' first pictures! After it was over, they had me lie back on the table for about 30 minutes then came in and said I could get dressed and FINALLY go to the bathroom! THANK GOODNESS!

Now comes the funny Valium part. I didn't really notice anything after taking the medicine, I was lying back on a table, trying to relax my midsection the best I could. Easier said than done, let me tell you! When I sat up to get dressed, that's when I could really feel the effects of meds. Matthew kind of laughed and asked if I was ok. He helped me finish getting dressed because there was no way I was getting my pants back on by myself. Once I steadied myself a bit, I walked to the bathroom, still very woozy, mind you. We gathered all of our stuff, asked a couple more questions and were on our way! We stopped at the grocery store to pick up more Gatordade, and then made our way home. I'm on bed rest orders for the next 24 hours, and after that it depends on how I feel.

So there's where we stand! I am now carrying two little embabies! Lots of hopes and prayers that one or both of them stick and stick tight! My first blood pregnancy test will be on April 20th, the second is the 22nd. They won't call me with the results until after the 2nd Beta. Thankfully those tests will be done the week of my spring break from school. If they're negative, then I can have my meltdown at home instead of at work! BUT they will be POSITIVE!!!!!! :o) Power of positive thinking at it's best :o) Dr. H said to think very pregnant thoughts the next few weeks! Now here is the pic of our little embabies! I tried to put the ultrasound pics here, but they are such tiny specs it's really hard to see them.

The Fertilization Report!

I just heard from our coordinator with the big report, and I am on cloud nine right now! Out of our 41 eggs 34 of them were mature and 29 of them fertilized! I am beyond excited right now! They have me scheduled for transfer on Sunday (day3) at 10:30, but she said that they'll monitor the growth and change and will call me if they want to bump it out to a day5 on Tuesday. I am definitely excited and ready for the transfer, but I would really like to be able to do a day5. Not that there's anything wrong with day3, but I think our odds would be slightly better with a day5 if we can make it that long.

Anyway, that's where we are! I'm so excited about how well everything has gone to this point, and we keep hoping and praying our good fortune continues! I can't help but believe that this really is God's plan for how we are to have a family! The road to IVF was a little rocky, but once we made the commitment to the procedure everything just fell right into place. I truly believe this is His plan for us! Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers!

Retrieval Day!

Well, to say that today was the egg retrieval would be the understatement of the year. Now that I have your attention, I'll come back to that statement in a bit while I walk you through the morning. Annoyed with me?!?! :o)

The retrieval was scheduled for 9:00 and I had to be at the office by 8:15 for procedure prep. We arrived and were the first couple there. Turns out my retrieval was the first of the day as well. I liked having the first one, the doctor was nice and fresh that way! We signed the anesthesia payment form, so they could submit everything to insurance. Nurse Luanne took me back and I changed into my lovely hospital gown. She took my BP, pulse, and temp, had me sign the anesthesia release form, and I had to fill out a medical questionaire. She went over my new protocol calendar with me, and also gave me a paper with info for what to do after the retrieval and transfer, as well as warning signs of OHSS to watch for. Hopefully they are nothing we have to worry about! She had me lie back on the gurney and then started my IV. While I was being prepped, Matthew was off doing his business, and when he was done they let him come back and sit with me while we waited for the procedure to start. And now because I'm sure you're just dying to see my before pics...here I am waiting to be taken to the procedure room!

The anesthesiologist came in to talk to me real quick, checked my heart and lungs, asked a couple of questions and said that everything looked good, and he'd see me in the room. A few minutes later Nurse Jo came to get me. She let me use the bathroom one more time, and Matthew went to the waiting room. I walked into the procedure room and she helped me sit and get situated on the table. I was all ready to go when Dr. H came in and the anesthesiologist told me that it was time to go to sleep. The last thing I remember is the speculum, which as it turns out, when you're in the process of being put under, the speculum isn't bad. ha!

The next thing I knew I was back in my prep/recovery room and one of the nurses was waking me up. I kind of remember telling her that this was an improvement from the last time I was put under, I wasn't crying as I came out of it this time, and she laughed. I'm sure they hear all kinds of crazy things when patients are coming to. They hooked me back up to the blood pressure and heart rate monitors to check my vitals for a while afterwards, and I was in and out of sleep. I really don't know how long I was in recovery, but Dr. H came in to check on me at one point and asked how I was feeling. He then told me (and here's what the first sentence was referring to) that he retrieved 41 EGGS! I said, how many? And he repeated 41, I was shocked! I knew I had over 40 follicles but I figured several of them would be so small that there wouldn't be eggs in them.

The nurses checked my vitals a few more times, took out my IV and helped me sit up to try and regain my balance. Matthew came back and helped me get dressed. Once I was dressed and could stand up, they gave me the "hallpass" back and told us we could check out with the receptionist and we were good to go. They told us again that I did great and to call if there were any concerns or questions.

So now I'm resting, and trying to be as patient as I can. Merry Kay, my coordinator, will call tomorrow morning with the fertilization report. Even though we got 41 eggs, not all of them are mature and therefore can't fertilize. If they aren't mature the embryologist will just dispose of them. I'm so anxious to hear how it went! One thing's for sure, the embryologist is going to be busy today! Matthew has been home taking care of me today. He went to get me lunch, gatorade and a new thermometer. I have to take my temp every day until the transfer. If I have a fever the transfer can't happen because my body will reject the embryo(s).

One last thing, sorry this is getting long. Thank you SO MUCH to everyone for their positive thoughts, words and prayers. It means so much to me to have your support! You have really helped make this process easier! Stay tuned for tomorrow's news!

Ugh, the bloat!

I've been really quite happy with how everything has gone throughout our cycle. It's all seemed to go very smoothly. I was even happier that I wasn't putting on a bunch of weight from the meds, like some people have mentioned. Well, let me tell you I have that weight now! This has to be one of the most cruel jokes to EVER play on an infertile person. Since my ovaries are so freakin huge and full right now, my stomach is distended. When your ovaries are approximately the size of tennis balls there's not really anywhere for them go to but out. I seriously look like I'm pregnant! Not like big time pregnant, but early pregnant. It's not fun to look in the mirror! Even Matthew this morning was surprised at how much my stomach has bloated the last day or two. What's even more unfortunate, is it will probably get worse before it gets better. Oh well...such is my life right now. Let's just hope that it's successful so that all of this was worthwhile! Only 15 1/2 hours to go! :o)

Trigger!

Well the countdown is on! We went back to the RE's office this morning to go over the details and instructions of the trigger shot. Matthew came along today so that he could hear first hand from the nurse how to administer the injection. She showed us how to mix the meds, draw up the liquid, and inject. Seemed easy enough, but definitely nervewracking! Merry Kay said she'd call me later in the day with the EXACT time of the trigger tonight and the time of the retrieval on Thursday!

She called me a little before 1:00 and told me to do the trigger at 10:30 tonight. I was SOOOOO relieved. Sometimes the trigger has to be administered at some crazy time like 1 or 2 am. I was very happy that we had a normal injection time! She also gave me the time of the retrieval and the time to be there. Our retrieval is scheduled for 9:00 on Thursday. We have to be at the office by 8:15 to prep for the procedure. I really can't believe that it's almost here! It seems like we just started this whole journey!

So in preparation of this huge injection I googled several videos of giving intramuscular injections, specifically in the deltoid muscle, which is where mine had to go. Matthew watched the first couple happily, but then got a little annoyed with me. :o) At 10:15 I started to prep the meds and myself. Matthew practiced a couple of times, without the syringe in his hand, while we waited for 10:30 to appear on the clock. Those last few minutes seemed like an ETERNITY! But soon it was time. I had already mixed the meds, drawn it into the syringe, changed the needle (super important!!!) and we were ready to go. Matthew pulled the skin taut with one hand and quickly stuck with the other. I'd be lying if I said I didn't flinch a little bit, but he did very well.

So now that I've triggered my body is prepping to release the eggs! The retrieval is scheduled just ahead of when the eggs would all release on their own. I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a very long day! As anxious as I'm getting, I'm also really ready for it to be here and done. I want to know how many good eggs I had, how many fertilized, and how well they're growing! Lots of good thoughts and prayers will be said the next few days!

Surprising news!

Ok, so I realize I already posted once today, but I just got off the phone with my coordinator at the RE's office, and she gave me some news I was not expecting! She told me that my dosage tonight was to remain the same (which is good because my E2 must not be out of control!) but that instead of having an ultrasound and another E2 check tomorrow, I'm getting my HcG(trigger shot) instructions instead! I'm triggering tomorrow night! That means that the retrieval is probably going to be Thursday morning! Holy crap this is REALLY happening now! I've been so calm and collected throughout this whole process, but now I'm getting nervous. I was not expecting her to tell me to trigger yet! I guess one thing's for sure, we know I respond well to the meds! Here we go! Baby Kuntz PLEEEEEEAAAAASSSSEEEE be ready to join our family!!!!

HOLY FOLLIES!

Wow...well my day started with quite the surprise! I went to the RE this morning for my first ultrasound and blood work after starting stims. They check the progress of the follicles and estrogen levels throughout the cycle to make sure that things are growing and to try to prevent overstimulation (OHSS.) OHSS is bad enws and NOT something you want to have happen.

Anyway, back to my appt this morning. I had my u/s first and then they did the blood draw. Nurse Jo told me not to be surprised or worried if they weren't very big yet. I said ok, and then told her I've been feeling pretty uncomfortable and full lately. She relayed that message to Dr. H and when he came in he asked about it. I told him after the 2nd stim shot I was starting to feel stuff, so I figure it has to be working, and he agreed that it probably was working. So I get into the lovely stirrups and in goes the wand. He measured my endometrial lining first which was at a 9 (yea!) then he moved the wand to my left ovary. He started measuring the follicles and rattling off the measurements to Jo who recorded it on my chart. I tried to keep count but it was all going so quickly that I gave up, and I was in a little bit of shock at how many he was finding! Finally after what seemed like forever he moved the wand to my right ovary and started the process all over again. By the time he was finished I had OVER 40 FOLLICLES! That number is huge! he said we were going to wait to see what my E2 (estrogen) looks like and then decide on the medicine dose.

After the u/s I went back to the waiting room to wait for my blood draw. One of the lab techs, Brian, did my draw today. I LOVE when he does it. He is the best person I've ever had draw blood. I could barely feel the needle stick! He's drawn it once or twice before and always does a super job. Anyway, after Brian drew my blood, I met with Merry Kay my coordinator. She told me that unless they called and told me differently, to do my injections tonight at the same dose. They are focusing on making the almost mature follicles reach maturity, and the little ones are not important any longer. I have so many that they don't need to worry about the tiny ones! I have to go back tomorrow for another u/s and more blood work to continue to check the E2 levels. Hopefully they're not out of control! OHSS is not something I want to deal with on top of everything else!

Things are moving...

Tonight was stim night #4. The meds have most definitely kicked in! In fact, after just two nigths of stimming I was already starting to feel a fullness in my abdomen and it was a little tender. I was walking down the hallway at school, kind of quickly, yesterday and everything felt like it was bouncing around and being jossled with every step I took.

It really surprised me that after only two days I'd be feeling the effects of the stims, but when I thought about it a longer, it made a lot more sense. For the January IUI I was only doing 50iu every night. I did that for 6 nights total and had 5 total follicles. Two of them were mature, and a third potentially matured by the time I actually ovulated. My dosage this time for the first two nights was 225iu each night, which means, in one night I had almost as much medication as I did in a whole week back in January. No wonder I could feel it working already!

Last night was the start of Menopur. That was quite the experience. My dosage of Follistim went down to 150iu and then I took half a vial of Menopur. Menopur is a little tricky in that it has to be mixed. It comes in two vials. One containing the powder, the other has the sterile solution. Once I got it all mixed I thought the hard part was over. Unfortunately my syringes have been kind of a pain in the rear and I've had a lot of air bubbles in the syringe. I tried to get as many out as possible, but I also didn't want to lose the medication. Since I'm not injecting into a vein it's not a huge deal to have air bubbles, but it definitely feels weird! As I'm pinching my skin to give Matthew a place to inject, I can feel the air bubbles underneath. It's a little disturbing, not gonna lie. It throws Matthew for a bit of a loop too.

The addition of Menopur last night plus continuing the Follistim made my belly even more tender and sensitive. I had to losen my belt at school from the normal notch because it was so uncomfortable. I'm really starting to see why people have told me to make sure to wear loose clothing by the time I get to the retrieval. They're not kidding about becoming really uncomfortable. I'm really starting to wonder what I'm going to feel like a week from now!

Needless to say I'm really anxious to see what kind of progress I've made on Monday. I think this is the first time ever that I actually want Monday to be here! I would be really surprised if there isn't much follicle growth. As much as I can feel right now, it just doesn't seem possible for there to be minimal growth. It's also getting hard to find a spot to pinch that isn't sore. I'm doing really well with the injections, but this evening between the sore abdomen/ovaries and the bruised tender skin, pinching for my two shots was a little painful. Oh well, WHEN it works and we finally have our baby it will all be worth it! Any extra positive thoughts and prayers for this cycle are greatly appreciated!!!