Well...nothing new here! I guess I should be thankful for that. So far pregnancy has been uneventful. lol! Aside from going from full to STARVING at the drop of a hat and needing to pee every hour or two nothing else has really been happening. It's going to be pretty boring (I hope) until our ultrasound on the 9th. I can't wait to go back to the RE and get reassurance that everything is right on track. I'm so anxious to see the sac and make sure there is actually something in it! If we're lucky we might be able to detect a heartbeat but it will still be kind of early, so I'm not putting too much hope into that just yet. It will be a VERY welcome surprise if we do hear it!
This is going to sound nuts but I'm dying to start taking belly photos! There isn't anything to take a pic of yet. I'm just bloated, so I will hold off, but once we have our u/s and know that things are good to go, the belly shots will begin! Get excited! HAHA! :o)
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
Starting to sink in
Wow...it's still really hard to believe that we are really pregnant! It's starting to sink in, but since I don't look pregnant yet, and won't for a while, it's sometimes hard to really believe. Once we see our little bambino on the u/s screen I'm sure it will finally be REAL.
I really haven't had too many pregnancy symptoms yet. Not that I'm surprised really. Most people have no clue they're even pregnant yet at this stage. Today I'm technically 4 weeks and 5 days. It kind of freaks me out to say that because I know just how fragile this time is, but I'm trying VERY hard not to focus on what might happen and just enjoy the fact that after 16 long, painful, heartbreaking months we have finally achieved our goal! Such a great big huge thank you goes out to our doctor and his staff. Without them none of this would've been possible! I will be forever grateful to them for the help they gave us.
There are a few symptoms I have started to notice though. First and sorry for the TMI here...haha...I am peeing like a racehorse! I swear I have to go every hour or two all day long! Thankfully it's not that frequently at night, but I am getting up multiple times each night. For someone who never used to get up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom, this has been quite the adjustment! The second thing I've noticed is how hungry I am, and it will come out of nowhere. I will eat, be full, and an hour or two later my stomach feels like it is going to eat itself if I don't find food that very instant! It kind of makes me nervous about the amount of weight I'm going to put on if this keeps up! The last thing is I get super tired really easily. By the time I go to bed I barely get out a "goodnight" and a kiss to Matthew and I am totally zonked! I have a feeling I'm going to be spending lots of quality time with my couch this week when I go back to work.
Not much else to report :o) Unfortunately until the 9th you'll just get to read about new pg symptoms, and whatever random thoughts I'm having. Lol! I guess that's a good thing. I really don't want anything exciting to happen yet, because at this stage "excitement" usually isn't good.
Well, Spot and/or Dot...I can't wait to see you in a few weeks! Grow, grow, grow big and strong!
I really haven't had too many pregnancy symptoms yet. Not that I'm surprised really. Most people have no clue they're even pregnant yet at this stage. Today I'm technically 4 weeks and 5 days. It kind of freaks me out to say that because I know just how fragile this time is, but I'm trying VERY hard not to focus on what might happen and just enjoy the fact that after 16 long, painful, heartbreaking months we have finally achieved our goal! Such a great big huge thank you goes out to our doctor and his staff. Without them none of this would've been possible! I will be forever grateful to them for the help they gave us.
There are a few symptoms I have started to notice though. First and sorry for the TMI here...haha...I am peeing like a racehorse! I swear I have to go every hour or two all day long! Thankfully it's not that frequently at night, but I am getting up multiple times each night. For someone who never used to get up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom, this has been quite the adjustment! The second thing I've noticed is how hungry I am, and it will come out of nowhere. I will eat, be full, and an hour or two later my stomach feels like it is going to eat itself if I don't find food that very instant! It kind of makes me nervous about the amount of weight I'm going to put on if this keeps up! The last thing is I get super tired really easily. By the time I go to bed I barely get out a "goodnight" and a kiss to Matthew and I am totally zonked! I have a feeling I'm going to be spending lots of quality time with my couch this week when I go back to work.
Not much else to report :o) Unfortunately until the 9th you'll just get to read about new pg symptoms, and whatever random thoughts I'm having. Lol! I guess that's a good thing. I really don't want anything exciting to happen yet, because at this stage "excitement" usually isn't good.
Well, Spot and/or Dot...I can't wait to see you in a few weeks! Grow, grow, grow big and strong!
Friday, April 22, 2011
BFP!!!!!!!!!!
Oh so many answered prayers today! Thank you SO MUCH to everyone who has been praying for us. It means more than you can ever know! I can't even begin to explain how I'm feeling right now! I am still in shock that I'm actually PREGNANT! We have waited so long for this moment!
My coordinator called only about an hour after we left the doctor's office! I couldn't believe how fast we had the results! We ran a few errands after leaving the office, (I think Matthew was trying to keep me occupied...hehe) and we weren't even home yet when she called! Then came the most glorious news I've ever heard. "Your betas were positive!" How I managed to not cry I'll never know! I was on the verge that's for sure!
Oh this is definintely a Good Friday in so many ways! So many blessings to be thankful for! I can't wait for our little Christmas miracle!
Since I have waited 16 months to know what a positve pregnancy test looks llike, I couldn't resist peeing on a stick or two :o) This is the most beautiful picture!
My coordinator called only about an hour after we left the doctor's office! I couldn't believe how fast we had the results! We ran a few errands after leaving the office, (I think Matthew was trying to keep me occupied...hehe) and we weren't even home yet when she called! Then came the most glorious news I've ever heard. "Your betas were positive!" How I managed to not cry I'll never know! I was on the verge that's for sure!
Oh this is definintely a Good Friday in so many ways! So many blessings to be thankful for! I can't wait for our little Christmas miracle!
Since I have waited 16 months to know what a positve pregnancy test looks llike, I couldn't resist peeing on a stick or two :o) This is the most beautiful picture!
Thursday, April 21, 2011
One more day
Talk about the longest 2 days of my life! Yesterday I had my first beta. Unfortunately my RE's office doesn't give the results until after the 2nd beta. I understand the reasoning behind it, but it is definitely a slow, painful form of torture! Tomorrow morning I go in for the 2nd one, and hopefully by around noon I will have the results. I am experiencing every single emotion I think a person can. I guess the only good thing is I've only felt like this for one week instead of two like all my other 2ww's.
I'm incredibly relieved that Matthew has the day off tomorrow. I don't think I could handle getting the news alone, good or bad, but especially if it's bad. Thank goodness for no work. I can have my meltdown or fit of excitement at home instead of at work :o) Hopefully we will be celebrating and crying tears of joy!
I'm incredibly relieved that Matthew has the day off tomorrow. I don't think I could handle getting the news alone, good or bad, but especially if it's bad. Thank goodness for no work. I can have my meltdown or fit of excitement at home instead of at work :o) Hopefully we will be celebrating and crying tears of joy!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Crazy is setting in...
Ok, so I was doing GREAT during this 2ww. It's been the best one I've ever had to endure, until yesterday. The longer I have to wait, and the closee I get to results day the crazier I'm becoming! I'm having a lot of "it didn't work" thoughts. I know, I know...positive thinking. I'm trying REALLY hard to combat the negative with two positive thoughts, but man is it getting hard!
Rationally I know that yes there is a 50% chance that it worked, but that also means there is a 50% chance that it didn't work. I've been back and forth between thinking we're soon going to be parents, and thinking that we will be back to square one. If it didn't work, we have 5 little tot-sicles to work with. They are already at the blastocyst stage, and frozen cycles have very good chances of succeeding.
My symptoms, or lack there-of are also not helping the crazy any. I really haven't felt much of anything. Realistically I shouldn't be yet. The hCG levels in my blood are not going to be that high yet, and until they are I won't be feeling any pregnancy symptoms. Any little twinges I do feel I'm positive are just a result of the progesterone I take every night. My head is spinning all day long, and it's getting quite exhausting...I never thought I'd say this, but I'm almost ready for my break to be nearing its end just so I can have my results. I'm ready to know one way or the other, just so we can move forward and start planning for the next steps...whatever they may be.
Spot and Dot, your mommy is hoping and praying everyday that you're still going strong! Sophie is doing her best to keep you nice and warm by lying across my belly every day :o)
Rationally I know that yes there is a 50% chance that it worked, but that also means there is a 50% chance that it didn't work. I've been back and forth between thinking we're soon going to be parents, and thinking that we will be back to square one. If it didn't work, we have 5 little tot-sicles to work with. They are already at the blastocyst stage, and frozen cycles have very good chances of succeeding.
My symptoms, or lack there-of are also not helping the crazy any. I really haven't felt much of anything. Realistically I shouldn't be yet. The hCG levels in my blood are not going to be that high yet, and until they are I won't be feeling any pregnancy symptoms. Any little twinges I do feel I'm positive are just a result of the progesterone I take every night. My head is spinning all day long, and it's getting quite exhausting...I never thought I'd say this, but I'm almost ready for my break to be nearing its end just so I can have my results. I'm ready to know one way or the other, just so we can move forward and start planning for the next steps...whatever they may be.
Spot and Dot, your mommy is hoping and praying everyday that you're still going strong! Sophie is doing her best to keep you nice and warm by lying across my belly every day :o)
Friday, April 15, 2011
One more week!
Ok...so I had a great post all done and ready to be uploaded, and I lost it. GRRR!!!! Anyway I'll do my best to recreate it.
One more week until the big Beta reveal! I find myself stuck in an internal battle between wanting it to be here soon and hoping the next week goes VERY slowly. See, next week is my spring break from school. Anyone who knows a teacher knows that spring break can't come soon enough and is always way too short. So there's my dilemma. My results won't come until next Friday. By then my week of freedom will be almost over, yet I'm anxious and excited to know the results. My first blood test will be on Wednesday, but they won't tell me positive or negative until after the 2nd test on Friday.
I really haven't stressed over this. For some reason this 2ww, which thankfully is not a full two weeks when doing IVF, has been the least stressful of any I've had, and there have been a lot! I don't know if I was so focused on warding off OHSS, or if it's because I have had such a great feeling about our chances, but I really haven't worried about the phone call that will come next Friday afternoon. Now I'm sure I'll be singing a different tune next Friday, but for now, I'm cool as a cucumber :o) Hopefully my lack of worry and nervousness is a great sign!
I found a really cool website that talks about the different stages of development post IVF procedures. Today is 5 days post 3 day transfer (5dp3dt in internet chatroom shorthand). I found a GREAT website that gives the details of each day's progress post transfer. According to the NYU Fertility Center Spot and Dot are now blastocysts, have hatched out of their shells, and are burrowing deeper into the uterine lining to fully implant! Let's hope that one or both of them are still going strong!
As always grow babies grow!!!!!!
One more week until the big Beta reveal! I find myself stuck in an internal battle between wanting it to be here soon and hoping the next week goes VERY slowly. See, next week is my spring break from school. Anyone who knows a teacher knows that spring break can't come soon enough and is always way too short. So there's my dilemma. My results won't come until next Friday. By then my week of freedom will be almost over, yet I'm anxious and excited to know the results. My first blood test will be on Wednesday, but they won't tell me positive or negative until after the 2nd test on Friday.
I really haven't stressed over this. For some reason this 2ww, which thankfully is not a full two weeks when doing IVF, has been the least stressful of any I've had, and there have been a lot! I don't know if I was so focused on warding off OHSS, or if it's because I have had such a great feeling about our chances, but I really haven't worried about the phone call that will come next Friday afternoon. Now I'm sure I'll be singing a different tune next Friday, but for now, I'm cool as a cucumber :o) Hopefully my lack of worry and nervousness is a great sign!
I found a really cool website that talks about the different stages of development post IVF procedures. Today is 5 days post 3 day transfer (5dp3dt in internet chatroom shorthand). I found a GREAT website that gives the details of each day's progress post transfer. According to the NYU Fertility Center Spot and Dot are now blastocysts, have hatched out of their shells, and are burrowing deeper into the uterine lining to fully implant! Let's hope that one or both of them are still going strong!
As always grow babies grow!!!!!!
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
We have Tot-sicles!
I heard from my coordinator a little while ago and I am really happy with our freezing report! She said we had 5 blastocysts frozen! I am so relieved! With 27 little embryos still growing the day we transferred I was really afraid we'd wind up with 15 or 20 frozen ones. Then comes the huge question, "What do we do with them?" There is a good possibility we'll have to answer that question if both of my little embabies stick this time, but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. It's a lot easier to make the decision with 5 as opposed to 15 or 20! We will be getting a letter in the mail from the embryologist with all the details about the frozen ones. I'm really anxious to hear the number of cells, grades, ratings, etc.
On a side note, I'm back to work today and whoa, am I tired! I knew I would be, but I am so ready for a nap it's crazy! Thankfully Wednesdays are my easy days. My class has several specials on Wednesdays so I can do quite a bit of sitting since they're not in the room all day long. Tomorrow and Friday though may be a different story. Thankfully my pain has pretty much disappeared. If I twist too hard or bend too quickly I'll get a twinge, but as for the constant soreness it's gone. YEA! I was beginning to think it would never go away. I guess the Gatorade (ick!) has helped! I'm still doing my best to choke it down, but I'm supplimenting with a lot of water. Water doesn't do as well at expelling the fluid, but it's better than nothing! What I wouldn't give to have a bathroom in my classroom! lol!
If all is going according to plan Spot and Dot are blastocysts now and working on hatching out of their shells so they can fully implant into my uterus. Let's hope they're doing their jobs!!!!! GROW GROW GROW!!!
On a side note, I'm back to work today and whoa, am I tired! I knew I would be, but I am so ready for a nap it's crazy! Thankfully Wednesdays are my easy days. My class has several specials on Wednesdays so I can do quite a bit of sitting since they're not in the room all day long. Tomorrow and Friday though may be a different story. Thankfully my pain has pretty much disappeared. If I twist too hard or bend too quickly I'll get a twinge, but as for the constant soreness it's gone. YEA! I was beginning to think it would never go away. I guess the Gatorade (ick!) has helped! I'm still doing my best to choke it down, but I'm supplimenting with a lot of water. Water doesn't do as well at expelling the fluid, but it's better than nothing! What I wouldn't give to have a bathroom in my classroom! lol!
If all is going according to plan Spot and Dot are blastocysts now and working on hatching out of their shells so they can fully implant into my uterus. Let's hope they're doing their jobs!!!!! GROW GROW GROW!!!
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